CEA & CA 19.9 TEST RESULT

                          CEA                            CA 19.9
23/2/2011       2432.9                            No test done
16/3/2011       1491.6                            257
21/3/2011        1581.3
11/4/2011        1354.8                           202
4/5/2011          1066                              196
25/5/2011         677.7                            112
13/6/2011         647.2                              87
4/7/2011           552.9                              72
25/7/2011         321                                  42
15/8/2011         360                                  37

Chemotherapy medicine

The doctor recommended me to take the below medicine.

a) Avastin - To stop the blood vessel to continue supply food to the cancer cell
b) Gemjar and Cisplatin - To kill the cancer cell

The cost for the above medicine are very expensive. It cost about RM 12,000 per cycle.

Cost of chemo treatment

At first I thought is just 6 chemo plus avastin maintaining for 1 year. End up after interview with some patient I might need to do up to 12 times. Every time I'm spending RM 18,000 - RM 22,000. Depending on if with Ct scan or not.

Now I have spent RM 200,000. Should I continue?

Western or Chinese

To continue or to change. I'm in the dilemma, should I try Ssg or continue my treatment. It remind me my mum. At that point of time, I have never ask my mum "how are you?" how is your treatment? I did not even know how to care my mum. I really regret when she past away. I have never thought that my mum diagnose at the age 45 and I diagnose at 31.

I have discuss with my husband and we decided to do both together. The chemo and SSG. I try to search on web for a similar case with me, but could find one.

Low white blood cell

Today I'm suppose to do my 9 th chemotherapy but the blood test result is bad. The white blood cell are way behind. I'm so happy as I don't need to do treatment today. But next week have to go also.

Continue treatment

I was so sad, when the doctor tell me that you need to continue another 3 cycles first! What do you mean by 3 cycles first? To me it seem like a "Never ending story". I ask the doctor until when she said,"We will scan again after 3 cycles". My husband already want to give up chemo. He wanted me to go purely on Chinese medicine which has no scientific proof.

I tell the doctor my concern and I'm not happy with the result. She advice that maybe after this 3 cycles I go for avastin only. My husband agreed with it.

I think it is fair that I go for more chemotherapy, as the 1st stage cancer patient also go for 4 cycles. I'm at stage 4, so fair enough.

I interview a friend who also diagnose with stage 4 lung cancer. She did 16 times of chemotherapy. If she can survive with it, I'm sure I can.

I have no sickness till now only the tumour litter pain and a litter side effect of the treatment on the 1st week. Therefore I'm sure I can be cure. I will fetch my son to school and I will do the jogging with him.

The 6th circle of my chemo therapy

I have done the 6th circle of chemo therapy. I always hope that it is the last time and I only need to do follow up. I pray to God that I hope this is the last time. Tomorrow is the bone scan result and friday is the CT scan result. I felt nervous as I myself feel that it is not so easy.

Final stage of lung cancer, going through treatment for 4 months can recover. I really don't believe it. I think on monday I still need to be admitted. The doctor will say go for another 3 circle and scan to look at the conditions again.

Am I negative to think like this. I just don't want to lie to myself.

I felt sorry to my beloved husband who have been so supportive and caring. I have not being treating him good at all since marriage. Do I still love him? He already being questioning me about this. What I can say is I love the baby more that him.

I scare to leave the world because of my baby. I want him to growth up with a mother. I can feel how it is without a mother.

To my son, I wish I can accompany you throught your stuff time.