I have done the 6th circle of chemo therapy. I always hope that it is the last time and I only need to do follow up. I pray to God that I hope this is the last time. Tomorrow is the bone scan result and friday is the CT scan result. I felt nervous as I myself feel that it is not so easy.
Final stage of lung cancer, going through treatment for 4 months can recover. I really don't believe it. I think on monday I still need to be admitted. The doctor will say go for another 3 circle and scan to look at the conditions again.
Am I negative to think like this. I just don't want to lie to myself.
I felt sorry to my beloved husband who have been so supportive and caring. I have not being treating him good at all since marriage. Do I still love him? He already being questioning me about this. What I can say is I love the baby more that him.
I scare to leave the world because of my baby. I want him to growth up with a mother. I can feel how it is without a mother.
To my son, I wish I can accompany you throught your stuff time.
