Is at brain now

Why I just can't like others just take care my lung for at least a litter longer. Just got to know it is now in my brain. Need to go through 10 times radiotherapy in onder to help to control the pain at night. Today is the 2nd therapy. I feel better now. But how about my lung. I went for ALK test but the doct say my biopsy might not be in hospital anymore, need to check. How can that happen. I thought they should keep for 3 years. Now is only 1 1/2 years. If they can't find can I sue them. As I still remember the pain of taking the biopsy. I hope the biopsy is still available and the ALK result is positive. I hope no more chemo for my body. I just need another few years to train my child.

Accept pain killer

I have start to accept pain killer as I have try with acupuncture and chinese medic also cannot help me from releasing my pain. A doctor advise me then, why you need to suffer as you already decide to have a better life for the rest. My pain have resulted my husband cry everyday. In order to make him happy, I must do it. I don't want him to cry for me everyday. Why Chinese physician always don't accept pain killer? They will ask us to stay with the pain. But if you are already in pain then it is just like taking chemotherapy side effect. Why not make yourself easy.

MRI result

I have MRI and CT scan after the 3rd alimta, result show the bone tumor are increasing and the lung tumor are getting smaller. I suspect because I have stop porcupine dates for 2 months which resulted in the increase of bone tumor. Now make my leg pain. But the MRI result show that my tumor is not affecting my nerve. If not the tumor then why my leg back thigh felt pain after I sit for more that 10 minutes. I head pain might due to lack of oxygen. I bought the oxygen concentrator today to try if the pin will reduce or not. As I notice I will vomit if I take pain killer. The doctor also suggest me to take children paracetamol as my weight now is just a 10 years old kids. I try also but seem sometimes work and sometimes don't. Today I will start my porcupine dates again see whether it will help to ease my leg pain or not.