What is life?

Yesterday, after talking to doctor and my hubby. I start to feel lost about my life. What am I looking towards and forward in future. No answers.

I start to questions, what next? treatment or no treatment or what? I really don't know what to do. What is the aim of my life whereby I can't enjoy my food and life with friend and also work.

Doing the daily routine, wake up medicine, qi gong, sending child to school, eating then Qi gong again and sleep.

What next about tomorrow? still the same. I guess is all because that my life is just too challenging and busy before this.

Bad news

Did my CT scan last two days, the result are bad. My chinese medic are not doing very well. in 6 months, the tumour have spread to my left lung and the right lung tumour are getting bigger.

Should I continue with chinese medic and Qi Gong or should I go for Alimta. Doctor advice go alimta for 6 cycle then stop and rest. This will prolonged my life span. Looking at the 2 blogger, both with different choice after 3 years still facing the same difficulty really make me down.

My sister in law are making new medic for me to try again.

Yesterday, I have suck out the water in my lung, I think I felt better today. But the doctor say the water will be back anytime as the tumour is very active.